waving the "white flag"

"my life's been better since the day I left you boy
I must admit life's been kind to me
I went and did the things I said I would do boy
I found someone who loves me for me, yeah
haven't had much drama since the day that we split boy
my hearts never been more at ease
and when I think of all the things you put me through
leavin’ you has been the best thing for me
so why does it hurt so bad
why do I feel so sad
I thought I was over you
but I keep cryin’ when I don’t love you
so why does it hurt so badly
baby, I thought I had let you go
so why does it hurt me so
I gotta get you out of my head"
-whitney houston

...i couldnt say it any better.
i realized something; it hurts more when you try to stop loving someone vs. continuing to love them. i figured out that i dont have to hold resentment against a person for the past; and its ok to love someone that you dont want to be with because they did you wrong. TRUE feelings never really leave; if it was ever TRUE love.

it comes a time when the arguing, fighting, and childishness gets old and you just want to be at peace. im not afraid to admit all this, because after all i AM human. i have feelings. im NOT perfect. and i know myself well enough to know that when i fall in love with someone there will always be something there. there is no fighting, or hiding it. i realize that. and no i am NOT in love with anyone, or still in love; smh. im just being woman enough to say that some feelings just dont go away...